October 2010
“Girls are allowed to dream, it’s what we do best.”
2 Things
When I’m with you everything seems so right, but when I’m not my heart wanders, I want better, but then again I’m not really sure what better is.
You’re great, really, and I can’t think of anyway to top you. I just don’t know, but then again while I think this I am away from you.
When I’m with you I want you, when I’m not I have some doubts.
...
all of nothing
Today
[You]
12: 01am
it's all wrong wrong wrong
I can't catch a break
[Kansas Dan]
12: 02am
Elena what obstacles have i presented?
[You]
12: 02am
even when I try to be nice it's still an insu;t
i'm trying
i went o walmart with you
[Kansas Dan]
12: 02am
ooooo
big deal
wal mart
awsome
[You]
12: 03am
wow real nice.
remember this moment
because you're being an absolute jerk right now
and it's so uncalled for
[Kansas Dan]
12: 04am
it's like how you thought just chit chating with me tells me you care about me
[You]
12: 04am
so unjustified
[Kansas Dan]
12: 04am
it doesn't
Just tell me you do
Elena
tell me one thing
why does it hurt so bad to tell someone you care aout them?
[You]
12: 05am
I already explained that
you're annoying me so much tonight
I've never wanted to punch someone and hug them at the same time until now
[Kansas Dan]
12: 06am
try hugging them
it'd be nice every once in a while
to know you were there
[You]
12: 07am
i do
[Kansas Dan]
12: 07am
well then that someone can't be me
because you've only hugged me once
and i had to ask for it
[You]
12: 08am
when?
[Kansas Dan]
12: 09am
i don't know when
but i remember you telling me you don't like hugs
that they were awkward for you
it wasat my house
in my garage
next to my car
that's all i remember about it
so maybe i just drempt it
[You]
12: 12am
well here's the first time i hugged you
it was after homecoming
whe n you left laynes
[Kansas Dan]
12: 13am
alright so twice then
[You]
12: 13am
I've had about all I can handle of you for one night like I said you're finding something wrong with everything I say and it's annoying me so much
I'm leving now
and maybe tomorrow you won't be looking for every non existent slip up i have
I respondede to this thinking it was going to be a pleasant conversation
and it never is
[Kansas Dan]
12: 14am
maybe tomorow we can make eye contact
[You]
12: 14am
it alwasy turns into how badly i hurt
you
[Kansas Dan]
12: 14am
or hug
[You]
12: 14am
i'm not hugging you
[Kansas Dan]
12: 14am
i'm sorry that you hurt me
[You]
12: 14am
no be sorry that you're taking it out on me
[Kansas Dan]
12: 15am
???
i don't know what you want me to say
i know
[You]
12: 15am
it just seems spiteful even though i don't think it's meant to be
[Kansas Dan]
12: 16am
that doesn't mean I can't hope
[You]
12: 16am
don't say anything
[Kansas Dan]
12: 16am
it's your fault
why would i take it out on anyone else
[You]
12: 17am
you shouldn't be taking it out on people period!
(exclamation point actually)
I'm trying to fix things and you won't even let me do that
you let me dig myself deeper
and then have me bail myself out
it just doesn't work
I'm going to try to gain your trust
plus whatever else I have to do on top of that
I'm trying
legitimately trying and I don't even get credit for that
not that I should
it's to be expected
but anyways
have a pleasant night/morning
it's better than mine right now I can guarantee
but it's ok bc I'm still loving life
or maybe not accrding to you
accrding too you i hate myself so whatever
good night
[Kansas Dan]
12: 21am
sweet dreams Elena
5: 46amKansas is offline.
Indecision
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